Devastated, Missed the test Options

[Redpaw]

Hello Guys,
I'm devastated, I used to be an electrician and have been all my adult life and its all I've ever known and I'm always proud to say I was an electrician.

Well as many of you have known I got seriously screwed up in accident ( no fault of my own nor were drugs involved, I dont do that crap ) and I've tried to stay active with what's left and keeping it moving. I lost the license as a direct result of the injury and the lack of funding for continuing education while laid up last november in bed......

I took the re-test and missed it again by a single point, I failed all the contractor questions and the Oregon Administrative proccedings that are required as part of the test. I've never wanted to be a contractor, nor a supervisor and yet it is required and I missed it.

Hopefully I'll qualify for Job re-training ( just got back from interviews ) and can find something new in life because I'm not going to be going back to work as an electrician anytime soon....if it makes any of you feel better than I'll say this....

I passed all the hard shit, and failed the shit I don't give a rats ass about nor ever will.....man this just kills me, my life is so phucked up...and its all because of someone elses carelessness on the job this happened.

I want to go back and do what I'm good at and can't and now I have to tell everyone this miserable phucking story over and over again....

oh man this sucks, how am I going to tell my parents and people wanting me to get back on the ball?. This is HELL.

But I'm going to fight, I'm not giving up....I'm just hurting real bad right now with my second defeat in life....make the anguish go away...man this hurts.

There has to be a state that will take me on right now.....I'm on the look and will crawl there to be an electrician again, I so ashamed of myself I even took all the online tests you can buy over the internet and passed all of them with flying colors....This just wipes me out.

Redpaw

[Denise]

I'm sorry Dave.
Hang in there, you have so many good things going for you, just keep that in sight.
If its meant to be, it will happen, just keep trying if thats what you want, just never give up!
Just remember your loved by many......
Were here if you want to talk.

Sincerely,
Denise